One Sided Affair

True love to me, is a one-sided affair. No expectations of what you should receive. Just this selfish romantic that wants to do something for her because it makes him happy. That will go unreasonable lengths for unjustified outcomes. Spend 6 hours travelling just to see her for 10 minutes. Wait an hour for her only to catch her smiling at your sight for the longest three seconds of your life. Drive her to where she needed to be just to spend time with her. Spend a lifetime writing poems for her even though she doesnt like poetry. Spend a whole night wide awake because she stopped to meet you for coffee. Forget where you are or where you were supposed to be because you saw her today, and as ever, she looks just as stunning as the day you first met. Try hard every day to be a better man, the idyllic version of you that you think she likes. Be blindly in love with her and blind to her faults. In a one sided affair in which whether she is with you or not, the idea of her is always with you, to cheer you, to torment you, to make you feel mushy inside, to burn you with desire and to leave you with a lifetime worth of longing and hope. 

That is the kind of love I feel. 

Selfish, selfless, stupid but oh so real.

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